I've not heard back from the womentoring project I approached for a mentor with such hope back in October. I contacted them again to ask if I should reapply, and was told to.
So it's time to dust off my application, choose a new mentor and apply again.
The only problem is, I looked at the first chapter of my novel - you know, the one I'd submitted before. And it's rubbish. I think the whole 'hook' is probably way too predictable. The voice is stilted and self-conscious; it made me feel on edge, reading it.
It made my stomach feel all curdled with disappointment.
Obviously, rewriting that is job #1...but what if the whole thing is predictable, riddled with pretension and basically only fit for the recycling bin?